Sunday, March 30, 2014

Closing In On 100 and trying to keep things interesting

I weighed in this morning.  I am down 95lbs.  5 more to go....I thought I was plateauing but it is not the case.  Good news.  :-)

It's been a long couple of weeks.  It is that time of the school year that the fatigue is starting to kick in and spring break can't come soon enough.  I have to admit I am getting kind of bored with my usual food items.  The Greek yogurt is still good and will probably be a mainstay in my diet for a long time to come.  Lunch is harder- I just don't have the kind of time I need to really eat so I only have a very small meal that will get me through the afternoon.  I do a lot of low fat turkey and cheese roll ups which are fast and easy.

I tried two new recipes today. I made Foodie Fiasco's Cauliflower Risotto tonight- using chicken stock and a Vadalia onion.  I finished with some pecorino romano, for a little tangy salty/nuttiness.  I had really needed a break from meat for one meal- it was nice to just have some veggie goodness.

I also made something I am calling Oatmeal Protein Cookies- adapted from another recipe.  Here is my version:

Preheat oven to 375 F.

Mix all the wet ingredients together. In a separate bowl combine dry ingredients.  Slowly add dry to wet.  Scoop out golf ball size cookies onto a silpat - I used an ice cream scoop to get the same size cookie each time.

Bake for 10-12 minutes until lightly browned.
  • 0.5 cup(s), Applesauce
  • 0.5 cup(s), PB2
  • 0.25 cup(s), Water - Municipal
  • 1.0 tbsp(s), Vanilla extract
  • 1.0 egg (50g), Egg
  • 0.5 tsp(s), Baking soda
  • 0.25 tsp(s), Spices - Salt, table
  • 1.0 tsp(s), Spices - Cinnamon, ground
  • 0.5 cup(s), almond meal
  • 4.0 scoop (23.3g), 100% Whey Protein Isolate - Natural
  • 2.0 cup(s), Old Fashioned Oats
  • 2.0 of a cup (32g), Special K Protein Cereal
  • 2.0 tbsp(s), brown sugar

  • Nutrition Facts
    Servings 24.0
    Amount Per Serving
    Calories 107
    % Daily Value *
    Total Fat 3 g5 %
    Saturated Fat 0 g2 %
    Monounsaturated Fat 0 g
    Polyunsaturated Fat 0 g
    Trans Fat 0 g
    Cholesterol 9 g3 %
    Sodium 102 mg4 %
    Potassium 77 mg2 %
    Total Carbohydrate 13 g4 %
    Dietary Fiber 3 g11 %
    Sugars 3 g
    Protein 8 g15 %
    Vitamin A0 %
    Vitamin C8 %
    Calcium0 %
    Iron62 %

Monday, March 17, 2014

Comparing

One of the things about weight loss surgery is that everyone loses at a different rate. When I had my surgery in November I didn't have any expectations when it came to rate of loss. I just knew that I was going to lose and that was enough for me. After so many years of failing I knew this was the way and I have been successful, that is undeniable.

Here is the thing, I know a number of people who also had surgery in November who are already close to their goal weight, after almost 4 months! It was a little shocking, to be honest. I also came across a woman who lost almost 140 lbs in 4 mos, astronomical loss at 35# a month. She is also almost at goal.

I am a long way to goal when we look at the numbers. I have lost almost 90 lbs but I still have 150 lbs to go.  There is a major difference between those that need to lose 100 lbs vs. 200+. It seems to be a different head game too. I have to pace differently, set different kinds of goals, if that makes any sense. I did find a group on FB that is just 200+ people. That community has been really helpful.  I know I will reach my goal, hopefully by the end of this year, but ultimately it's about getting there. NOT HOW LONG IT TAKES. 

I have many moments of feeling like the online community hurts me more than helps me. I may narrow down my groups, which in the end might be the best idea for my mental health.

Saturday, March 15, 2014

NSV: Confidence!

Today I went in for the first Saturday Academy of the spring.  Saturday School is a way for students to make up late work, review for spring exams or get additional support from their teachers. I actually really like teaching on Saturday. I don't want to do it every weekend, but twice a month is ok.

Today one of my students who continuously struggles in class and has trouble meeting deadlines was in today and her mom came too, which was really nice to see. Mom took me aside at the end of the three hour session to let me know how impressed she was with my teaching specifically my approach with the kids, management and interactions. She was visibly emotional and went on to say how grateful she was that I was at our school.

As an educator, it is not often that we get that kind of feedback and encouragement. 
So what does this have to do with my VSG?  Last year I would say my confidence was at an all time low and my weight was at an all time high.   Leavening my last school was the first of a number of confidence building steps. Second was the decision to have  WLS.  The primary byproduct of these two monumental decisions has been CONFIDENCE.

I am finally working for someone who trusts me to do the job they hired me to do. My principal came in yesterday to do an informal observation...15 minute pop in, unannounced. I was teaching my 10th grade grade class that is the more advanced group. I am working in them taking more ownership of their leaning, facilitation of class discussions, and confidence as speakers who hold another accountable for their individual and collective learning.  They ARE growing as students and humans, which I am honored to be a part of.  I was confident in the work that my boss was seeing my kids do as well as being confident in the interactions he witnessed me having with my students. I love my work and I hope it shows when anyone comes into my classroom.

I won't lie, my confidence grows my as weight drops. I have always had some level of confidence about my career. But, the easier it is for me to move, to stand in front of a class, to even sit on a desk (there was a time when I never would have sat on a desk!)  is a reality.  On my way home today I decided to do a little retail therapy.  It was the first time I had tried on clothes since my surgery.  The top I have on is a 1x.  I wish my bottoms were decreasing as fast as my top, but I will take it. :-)

I feel more confident about my body, my work.  Life just gets better and better.

Tuesday, March 4, 2014

Emotional Ups and Downs

Last week was horrible. Here are the two big things that happened.

1. I almost passed out on the train Monday morning because I took my BP meds on an empty stomach and had a "pre-syncopal" episode due to hypoglycemia.The Heath Center at my school would NOT take my blood pressure because I am not a student. Thanks.
2. Found out our landlord is not renewing our lease because they need to give the apt. to a family member. We have until the end of the summer.

Silver linings:
1. Normal EKG
2. Off one of my 4 BP meds.
3. Actually kind of excited to move, dung out, spring clean and start fresh.

In a totally reactionary moment I cut off my long hair. My hair was really falling out, something that often happens with anesthesia and WLS.  It's doing better now.

I am also at 301 now. Down 85.5 lbs. It is amazing to think about. I don't anticipate 85 more pounds in the next three months but I would not be sad either.   Have 150 more to go. It will take as long as it takes but I am feeling really good. I am moving faster, my knees are not hurting and making that possible sound.

I know people in the VSG community who are really militant about food. I have come to a very peaceful place with it that never results in me hating on myself for a food.choice, something that always plagued me in the past.  I eat what I want. With exception of the things that are on the no-no list like anything carbonated or popcorn. There are also the things I have learned that anybody does not tolerate like broccoli, almond milk and anything spicy :-(. My tiny tummy holds so little that I don't have room for much but a little good chocolate from time to time is ok. I haven't had ice cream and sticking sugar free treats-popsicles, pudding (I excited to try the dulce de leche SF/FF pudding cups I picked up yesterday!) 

Life IS good and I am enjoying the journey.